Trust and Abundance

In fighting my hibernation, I have realized that it was necessary. Being a bit of a gadget freak,I was a bit dismayed when my blackberry had a fatal error and my laptop's hard drive crashed all within days of each other. For almost a week, I couldn't conduct business "on the go" as usual. It was weird not being able to tell people I was on the way, or not having the capability to take work with me, but looking back, I understand what it was all about.

I had said in a previous blog that I wasn't ready to start 2008. I felt like I needed more time.Well you get what you ask for.The technical glitches were quite useful to that end. I came out on the other side feeling quite protected and ready to face the day as it were. Sometimes, we need to step away from the fray. Not for any other reasons, than to be with our own thoughts. In fostering a centered perspective, we have to be willing to not take ourselves too seriously and just let things flow as they like. Once I accepted that the phone and laptop were dead, it was easier to enjoy the space between dysfunction and function. Once both were up and running again, I felt better equipped to handle the things that need to be done.

Ultimately, I have to remind myself that I am only one person and that while it is important to be on top of things, it is equally important to be in the midst of things. The journey is richer when I take the time to be aware of it.

Speaking of journeys, I went up to NY for a client's show last week and returned early evening Saturday. In the short time I was there, I learned a great deal about my decision to converge all my skills and my joy in doing such. It feels good to take care of clients in a holistic manner.

In bringing the manager/counselor/herbalist/friend together, I am living my truth. I invited another client to tag along because they needed a break. Earlier in the week disappointment and despair had set in and this particular client needed to get away. The trip was chock full of laughs and the normal tensions that often accompany our trips was gone. Apparently, said client had had an epiphany-if you focus only on the negative, it eats you up from the inside out.

They realized how much they allowed negative thoughts to dictate their moods and actions and made a conscious effort to be more positive-minded. As a result, this was the first trip we have ever taken,where we didn't argue once. It may not sound like rocket science, but there is a simple truth that cannot be ignored. Thoughts have power. When they are negative they have the power to ruin lives. Those thoughts that come from fear particularly, only result in creating more fear. Fear if left unchecked, will leak into other parts of your life, until everyone around you is infected. This leads to a great deal more conflict and can have a devastating effect on the quality of your life, including your health.

We have the power to create our own reality with a simple thought. In going on the NY trip, I didn't focus on past trips and the tensions that often accompanied them. I just looked forward to a good time. It was so much fun! I saw a great show, hung out with beautiful people and picked up a new client. The client in need of the getaway, learned a little more about themselves and their capacity to be happy. The little challenges associated with travel were handled far better than in the past and by the last day,we were able to congratulate each other on trip well traveled.

As always, I am humbled at the amount of love in my life. In being part of a supportive group of folks, spirit moves freely and helps us all be better and whole. We trust each other and in doing so, allow bygones to be bygones and try to do better the next time around. This simple concept is not easily managed by everyone, but for those that make the effort, there is an honest reward.

To the universe, I say "Thank you for the lessons." To those who read this, I hope that in this you find confirmation and/or insight. Live a fuller life, by being responsible and present.

IA

The In Between: breaking the seal

It is the fifth day of January 2008. I am not ready. I have had a difficult time making the transition into the steady action I expected to have in the new year. I am definitely no longer in 2007, but '08 isn't solidified just yet. The hardest part has been the underlying anxiety that lurks when I am not paying attention. I realize that regardless of the calendar, I am move at my own speed. In recognizing this I am working slowly towards the new year. I think I'm almost there, but want a little more time to myself before I begin.

How do you move at your own pace in a world that decides when people are allowed to take a break. Ideally, the holidays served as a signal that things had slowed down, but with the new year upon us, its as if break time is over and we are just supposed to pick up and keep it moving. The odd thing is normally I don't have a problem with this, but as of late, it has been hard. Instead of resisting, I am accepting and making smaller to-do lists that can be accomplished in my hibernation state. Oddly enough, according to some recent research, I have found that I fall under the Bear category in Native American religion. I guess hibernation is appropriate for now.